Hey, thanks for sticking around, it’s good to see you again.
In my previous post I was venting my frustrations about losing my momentum and how the little voices inside my head make it extremely easy for me to do NOTHING!
Did you know that each time I write a blog post, I re-read, and re-read it 100 times over. Then I sit with my cursor poised over ‘PUBLISH’ ponder about what the world might think of my latest piece and walk away to complete a mind numbing task like washing the dishes while I think about my post. Hours later I make a mad dash for my computer and with a big rush of adrenaline PUBLISH the sucker as if my content will be the best the world has.ever.seen!
I recently wanted to make cashew butter in my Thermomix – there isn’t a recipe that could be any easier in Thermie (oh my goodness, I just called it Thermie! WTF!) I re-read 5 different on-line recipe, all stating the same method with minor tweaks – find it all so overwhelming and walk away, never to make my cashew butter. Some random day later I walk into the kitchen have this out-of-body moment and whip me up some cashew butter without giving it a second thought.
Don’t even talk to me about making the family Christmas gift mixbook calendar for the following year. OMG, this baby sits in my head for months – I investigate the different options, contemplate the theme, have a look if I have enough family photo’s to fill a calendar, get the family to send me their shots and over a course of a month or two (way back in August/September) I try to pull something together. It all becomes too hard I wave my hands in the air and politely announce to the family that there will be no family calendar this year (insert sad face) Come three weeks out from Christmas I get this badass giddy-up on and produce a calendar that makes hallmark ones look dull and lifeless. Yeah I might have worked through to 3am to get the results but something inside drives the beast, and the frustrating thing is, that is the same ‘something’ that holds me back to do NOTHING! If only I could get them to talk so it wasn’t so ALL or NOTHING! type of thing.
And this my friend is my ritual across many facets of my life.
Does this make sense to any one?
Now that’s off my chest here’s what I really wanted to talk to you about.
Oh shit, I have run the clock down, so please join me next time for my latest all about nothing instalment.
“Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn’t do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.” ~ Mark Twain